So today, and last night have been weird.
I'm still confused on what I want.
To be single, to date?
Which is the best?
I'm afraid to date because I don't want to get hurt.
I'm afraid of being single because I hate being alone.
I know, I'm not completely alone.
Its just I need someone to love.
You can't love your friends the same way you love your lover.
I just don't know.
I wish I knew though.
It bothers me.
Last night I was told that no matter what, nothing in this world matters.
That everything is just pain, and suffering.
I half way believe that.
I half way don't.
There are good things in this life.
There just hard to obtain, and keep.
I don't know what to do, but wait.